On September 10, 2024, I shared a post:
https://afarinrava.blogspot.com/2024/09/novel-first-draft.html
Today, January 6, 2025, I will begin the editing process.
I read my first draft this morning, and yes, it's messy, but it may not be as "poopy" — I love your book Bird by Bird, Anne Lamott! — as I thought.
Reading my draft after such a long time made me realize that my subconscious mind may have led me to write certain parts in a particular way to allow my future self to stumble into brilliant ideas... like a plot twist I didn't see coming.
So... when you finish your first draft and get ready for round one of editing, instead of cringing at the chaos, ask yourself: Why did I write this? Your subconscious might just have a genius reason. Trust the process — think of your draft as a treasure map, and think of every strange choice as an X marking the spot.